new day new life

Everything is more beautiful because we're doomed.
-Troy

I'm no longer scared, I'm no longer faking it, I'm back to being me. I'm not worried for the future. I'm happy for this moment. Whole new perspective, whole new way of looking at life, whole new way of living in this beautiful life.

people are gonna always hear what they wanna hear and say what they wanna say. no matter how old u age.

i like being outspoken but sometimes i think i need to think a little before i say it. but then again, thats just me, i say it like it is, with the best intentions and honesty and i dk if the pill is it thats giving me anxiety. i need to just be me and stand behind myself and who i am. i need to trust myself also. and think about the bigger picture and not get dumb about little things that dont mean anything. nothing ever perfect. u make the best out of everything. but ur willing to work it out positively is the important thing.

i keep thinking for a while that bad things are going to happen to me with every little thing i do. but everyone has a past. everyone has an opinion. i need to just freakin let go and just be happy with me and my friends and my boyfriend and everything. and i didnt do anything wrong or bad. i need to accept that things are good and be okay and allow them to be good. see the good in everything. i constantly think whatever is on my mind if it will have a negative affect on me bc i basically just had an opinion, but i cant live like that. i just cant. and i cant compare myself to other people. i just am me. everyone is different. everyone has different needs. i need to just do what i gotta do. and deep down, i know me. i have the best intentions, ppl have dif opinions thats what makes the world go round. but i just gotta be me and stick up for myself and be the strong person that i am.

do what you wanna do!

Horoscope: Your creativity should never be confined. It can — and should — come into play in every single aspect of your life. Make sure that you give your imagination space to live and grow

yay vid works!

ok, so this is basically just for stef.. and sara too, to watch. the program i edited it on wouldn't let me convert or upload it in any normal human being way, so me, being the creative weirdo, i video recorded the video on the screen as it played on my comp. haha whatever, as long as u guys get the jist of it.. it was just for giggles.

this vid is one of stef's last nights before moving to ny (at least with me). shout out to all the people in the vid haha love you alllll gooood timessssss :)

rage from paige weinstein on Vimeo.

all i got is myself

i went on a biking adventure with my ipod for an hour and found peace listening to jack johnson while i cruised the streets this morning. i also laid by the pool gettin supa dark chocolate status..but then it was too much sun so i came back inside to start my studies :( sometimes i feel like i don't understand why people don't open up and just talk. but right now im getting that feeling. like i can't tell people anything anymore without it becoming 'something to talk about' and share and pass on to other people. Everyone makes a big deal about things that are nbd. people just gotta chilll. I feel like i need to bottle things up inside today and only share my thoughts with myself. because thats the only person who i feel gets me right now, has the time to be patient, and wont judge me.