"We're all a little crazy in our own way. You just gotta own it: your good stuff, your bad stuff, and all the in between, and then never stop improving."
"Grant yourself the grace of GROWTH. No matter how old we think we are. no matter how much we think we cannot do."
It has been 8 years since I visited this blog that I started my 2nd?/third year in college. WOW. I was in my prime and kinda knew it, yet didn't give myself enough credit probably for all the things I was going after and pursuing to become to person I wanted to be. With the classes and clubs in school I was a part of, to the outside activities--like wakeskating and being a part of a sports radio show towards the end of my college career and continued a bit after I graduated, and to the people I surrounded myself with. Even though I know it wasn't perfect back then, I wasn't afraid to go after what I wanted. I just did it. Because becoming my best self was more important than keeping myself from playing small because of fear, insecurity, and doubts.
I randomly thought about this blog and searched if it still existed online. I found it. And read through all 80 POSTS I made throughout college!! The blog was set to private- I made it public. There were also thoughtfully written posts about how I felt at the time that were innocent, truthful, and heartfelt that were saved in drafts (about 23 I believe-my lucky #). But they were meaningful to me at the time, and even now, so I just published them.
It's weird to think that it feels like yesterday that I was in college. I feel like the same person, but got lost a little in my head along the way. But today is a new day, and since today is all we have, I am going to try my best to take my advice I wrote to myself and the world (or whoever randomly found/finds this blog). I wish I would have read all these posts over and over, like somewhat of an affirmation of how I want to be/strive to be as a person in my everyday life. I was wise back then and didn't give myself enough credit on how open, unique, creative, hopeful, and imaginative my heart and mind was. I hope to get back to that so I can take advantage/make the most of everyday and the happy little things we sometimes overlook because we are focused on things that we shouldn't be. :)
I have to remind myself that everything is okay.
everything is all good. and everything happens for a reason. It all has
led me to where I am today and shaped me to who I am constantly evolving
into. Let life and your experiences make you stronger, not take over. nothing is perfect, it's how you react to it and your attitude that makes the difference. That's the part you have control over. Your thoughts, your positivity. Pursue what you want and who you want to be and you will become it. It's all about a happy mindset.
This blog has re inspired me to continue finding my true self and being who I want to be
